Nala’s whisper

Currently, I am into taking lots of pictures. These scenes I really love because its close to my heart..way better than watching television. I actually do not get to turn it on through remote but I just have to pull strings (lots of them) manually to turn this on. I do not really mind though but this is my best stress buster. No dramas, No halahaks…just a BIG AHHHHH.

I have to make sure there’s no dust. Its weird because all windows are closed but there’s always dust around. Maybe its because of the smog. I am not sure but it is not fun sweeping the floor all the time (hahaha as if I sweep the floor all the time)

I had to say goodbye to my piano career and say hello to this one…

Believe me..there is really a guard assigned for me. He is nice. He plays the guitar. I never heard him play though..I just see him play.

- just to check if its really closed
- just to see how it is closed
- just to double check that it is really closed
- when you do not trust the person closing the door
- when you don’t want to believe that it is already closed
- when you just want to say something, no matter how odd it is
- to check if it is locked
- to check if the door has a smaller door where you can see the inside
- to check what kind of door is that door
- to check if there is anything, window or whatever that is still open
- to make sure that it is shut forever or it is scheduled to open at some date
- to check if there is a guard guarding the door
- to check if the guard is cute hahaha
- to check if you know the guard
- to check if the guard can be bribed hahaha
- to check if you can open it
- to check if it is really really closed..because you think that is impossible
- to check if the door is for the ladies room or men’s room (hahahahah!)
- to check if when you knock on the door, someone will open it for you
- to check if there is a doorbell
- to check what kind of doorbell hahhaa
- to check the color of the door, or if the door looks grand or looks better because before it looks bad
- to check if the door opens up when you shout the secret password
- to check if the door is worth opening up
- to check if the door will open up when it sees you
- to check if the door has a bright color
- to check if the door has dogs guarding it to eat you up
- just to see the door

To cut it short..the door is closed.

 The guard…

A bad day is a bad day.

No time for pep talk.

No time for being positive. 

You just hate it and try to shut down any doors of optimism.

No plan to eat the craziest stuff in the world…no choc nut will help.

Sometime its a bad day and you just have to deal with it.

Just like drinking tempra when you are sick. Just like sleeping during summer and there is no electricity. Just like trying so hard to stay awake in a too boring meeting. Just like wearing uncomfortable shoes the whole day. Just like waiting for a cab the whole night. Just like knowing you forgot your keys to your condo when you are already in front of the door. Just like …just like…a soul having unfinished business but you don’t know what’s the business…(hehehe what’s the business?).

Can someone wash my brain? or someone wash my heart? with detergent! or chlorine!

Its weird that you can’t figure out what made things bad..its seems to just topple down right in front of you that this day is bad. I don’t know what it is but it just brought something bad inside…then everthing piles up…drags you. Oh my, I think I am sad. I just can’t figure out exactly.

The best term of my day: Endure.

I feel sick now…endure.

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There’s song that just keeps popping into my head.. — this song has given me the chills..chills in a good way that just drive you nights all crazy gaga kinda thing that you don’t know whether to just groove to the slowest possible swaying beat of the craze in its swave kind of not putting so much force on your every movement but really you cannot just handle the force but you just glide through the slow beat as if you are in a trance somewhere because the music just makes you SCREAM!!! ahh but you can’t.

WHEWW… This crazy beat just drives me nuts..ahhhhh..best song ever for dancing..

Tadadada daddad…tadadadad… you can dance upon the sweetest love refrain…you’re my tomorrow and you are my today..now only you can show the way…through fire and rain, I’m feeling pain sooo muchhh..
….

Ok..back to work.

SO Why am I in IT?

This brings me back to my job interview.I remember though how long the interview took when all that I was talking about was how was I able to organize a concert for Kythe. Its funny how I try to recall how I sell my self to my interviewer during my job interview here in Accenture. (hahaha sell my self! what a term). I think my selling point then when I was selling or marketing myself (hahaha market my self!!) was my eagerness and desire to learn. As usual, I exaggerated it to the nth power telling all the known and secret lessons I did in my life just to convince her. I thought I had the last laugh when I got in.

Well, I didn’t. I thought I am the one who exaggerated. The things you are expected to learn here are way greater than my eagerness level (to the exaggerated level). This is actually a good thing but is everything that I am learning worth it.

1.) DEFECTS
2.) Learning Curve
3.) ESTIMATION/BUDGET
4.) ISSUE ESCALATION
5.) REVIEWS
6.) POST MORTEM/RCA

These are all technical language close to any IT person’s heart. Honestly, I let all the lessons on these terms stay close to my heart.

For me, they are valuable lessons which I apply in my life.

1.No defects is the goal but in reality not all defects can be prevented. I won’t be freaking out if something does not go well in my life even if I become a saint.
2.Learning Curve exist and I apply this in all aspects of my life. This makes me more patient in dealing with people handling things for the first time. This makes me more open to people and forgiving of people making mistakes in life.
3.There is less frustration in the end when actions are planned first before executing it.   4. I believe in prayers.
5. No matter how smart you are and experienced you are in life. You will always need someone to check up on you from time to time to make sure you just don’t see the tree but the forest. Also, everybody needs a friend.
6. Its worth it if you take time to reassess your experiences in life, knowing the mistakes, correcting the mistakes before jumping into the same experience again. It won’t make your next experience of it the best but for sure it will be better.

Therefore, I conclude, period…If I could be in a job that will teach these lessons to MY FACE EVERYDAY just like today…Life will be better.

PS. This is an effect when you just had a bad day at work. Just need a little pep talk right there.

Come to think of it.. I am learning all this good lessons in life..but by trying to learn all these things everyday, everynight in IT, do I stil have a life where I can apply these?

It seems that I am now equating what I learn here at work to what I learn in life. Does this mean my work is my life or my life is my work? Either way its not good to the ears. Scaryy… Just kidding. But its true I have life here at work because I have friends here at work. (hahahah they read my blog nga e)

SOO..Why am I in IT again? I don’t know. We will see.

My friend and I decided to watch a movie today. I would love to watch Happily Never After but then my friend was not into cartoons that time. The next best thing is to watch Sunshine.  There you go..we bought tickets and decided to watch this film.

I was expecting drama..the usual Armageddon and Independence day kind of film that is for the family, saving mankind, saving a life of a friend, losing a family member for the sake of the universe and all that sort of thing. I was game for it and I already expected myself to cry.

Yes, I dropped a few tears but then in the middle of the film, I am starting to get the feeling that this will turn out to be a film which I will never watch ever (suspense thriller or horror). All of sudden, the film turned out to have this monster chasing everyone..killing them all. My friend and I had to cover our eyes the whole time.  Oh my, we were stuck to watch the whole thing. I don’t even know what kind of monster that is. 

At least I got to watch a horror thriller in the movies after more than 5 years..ok, that’s good for the next five.

I am not sure whether to smile or not,

For until now all lips are shut;

This is not just to showcase my worst and best,

For in this portal, there is a test.

It’s not a big thing to find out that you,

Wouldn’t hurt and make my life blue;

It would mean something to me, that is true,

Just knowing that there is a “you”.

Tell me now if you know and if its you,

Before I give up and say there is no you;

I would love to say a clue or two,

But then it will ruin finding out that you.

So SIRIT Na?