Nala’s whisper

Its 2 am and i’m still up thinking that my writing inspiration appears around these hours..

two am..

when no ones talking, no ones doing anything at all, no distraction…hopefully with that all cripy words comes out of you..and when your experiential recall is perfect..

they deserve it..not a forced discussion of performance..but the best inspired discussion I can ever give.

Before I turn 28:

1. I want to be a running and swimming enthusiast.
2. I want to lose 10 pounds.
3. I want to cook my food (do groceries and the works)
4. I have put all stuff (clothes, shoes, stuff toy, papers, envelopes) I don’t need to relatives who need it or charity or to trash cans. I should make way for the new stuff.
5. I bought new day perfume and new night perfume.
6. I do strength training on a regular basis.
7. I tried power peeling twice.
8. I traveled to some place far, interesting and new… ( China . Here I come!)
9. I have been asking about doing social work, marketing or teaching.
10. I have asked around about taking psychology (child/special child) classes.
11. I have attended all possible dev programs. (Team Lead School/Leadership Training and Professional Skills Development Courses)
12. I bought a new rubber shoes.
13. I bought a sports attire.
14. I bought a night time classic top.
15. I bought a good pair of jeans.
16. I tried surfing and wakeboarding.
17. I bought all the non basic make up I want and have used make up it regularly.
18. I completed another set of Medical Exam with good results.
19. I drink water..2 liters a day with ease and enthusiasm.
20. I drive with comfort.

What was your most memorable summer and what made it so great?

My best summer was May 2006, a month after a wicked release and a month after my heart got broken. I got to visit my sister with my brother which I looked forward to ever since my sister worked abroad. We are tight. Both are my best friends. It was fun since it was the first time we got together without our parents. We went to different places like Liberty Island, amazing restaurants in downtown, Times Square , etc. We were not sure when we three will be together again that’s why I treasured that experience.

As those amazing things happened to us, being in New York City with the best buds of my life, all I did was think about something else. Great things were in my face but I was not recognizing it just because I was rejected by one person. I was walking through all the pain when there was my family and friends who loves me to death and are still here for me no matter what. I got my much-needed nudge on the head there and after that I’ve started having the time of my life…appreciating those who just left my life but most importantly, appreciating those that are left behind.

I got a chance to visit my sister again the next year but I still would not trade my Summer May 2009 for anything. I learned a great lesson …life does not stop after getting your heart broken because in my experience, it just started.

I got this from Karren’s facebook Notes and so i tried it.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don’t like conflict. Because you’re so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend – you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

i fainted…close to fainting a couple of weeks ago..

was in a gym lifting weights after 3 years…

my arms are  worst..three lifts then im out..i tried so hard but i can’t…no one understands that i was exhausting myself because it was just 3 lifts…can’t do more but i tried..was dying somewhere beneath me..

i had to stop…

all are whoozy…i know there are thoughts in my head which was secondary to what was actually going on…

secondary becomes primary…which should never be…

there you go…i lost it…

the weird thing is that part of me knows im losing it..

till offfphs..

what’s with oxygen and consciousness?

my legs were lifted while i lie down…then im back.

whew… amazing

the end.

First experience was with my dad…walking through huge crowds during World Youth Day..just to see Pope John Paul 2.

Not everyone is into this and I don’t blame them.

1. You look so desperate.

2. its not easy to get along with strangers

3. its forced and its not a calling from what is supposed to happen

4. it forces two people to make it work instead of naturally making it work

These are all true anyways..these are the usual discomforts any two people in a blind date go through…

This did not stop me though.

Honestly, for any girl in sweet pursuit of having a partner and finding their soul mate..this looks like a good idea.

Imagine this, a close friend recommending someone from their own world to you.. wouldn’t that be better than getting to be approached by random stranger in your area? Most probably your friend knows you and would most probably have an idea what works for you. A friend would not recommend you to some big time player and heart breaker. So there, what’s wrong with a friend recommending you to a friend who just happens to be someone you don’t know?

Ahhh…i think that the worst part in doing blind dates is that you subject your heart to it as if you really wanted it so bad…its close to the icky reputation of being desperate. If that’s what most girls think about blind dates, then i cannot solve that.

Here’s my take though…I’m not desperate..I’m just honest that its hard to find someone who you like and likes you back. I’m also just honest that I want to have a family in the future and if you want that, you accept offered opportunities that can make that future happen.

If single girls just get over what other people may think and be honest to themselves, they might just be able use all venues to get their mr. right straight to them.

I’m not the best preacher for blind dates because i never had a success story.  Even so there were pluses…

1. I get to appreciate friends recommending their close friends to me…it just make me recommendable and i appreciates friends who introduce me to amazing men. 

2. I get to practice how to interact with men and being exposed to different kinds of conversation from politics, ecology, debates and different perspective in life.

3. I get to get to know my close friends better because of their friends.

4. I get to know my interests better and most importantly, i get to know myself better.  In fact, my idea of a partner changes as I get to understand men more in a dating scenario. I initially thought I fit older men…30s kind..i changed my mind, im too immature and crazy for them.

I’m not sure where this will take me..I can get my heart broken one day because of these. For now, it looks like the pluses definitely outweighs the discomforts and hesitations….and most importantly, risks may one day be worth it.

There’s lots of single friends in my life right now….all say NO to blind dates…  I see that just like videoke..no one wants to sing first but when some people get the hang of it and loosens up, people will just pile up and fall in line to sing their crazy heart out.

I was alone at home for my VL and I decided to just stay at home..clean the house, watch TV while my parents were off to work the whole day, my brother had to leave for a class…

me..at home..waiting for my parents to get back from work…

here comes 5:30pm — i was thinking my parents were most probably packing their stuff..wrapping up and on their way home..

here comes 6:00pm — not yet home..im still waiting…i cooked rice (just a cup and a half — water is 2 cups hihihi)…

then comes the sound of the car honks…then after few seconds..the opening of the gate…

its felt funny..something familiar that was forgotten for so many years..i felt it again..

sound that your parents are home..so excited but you’re not supposed to show it..so happy..so safe

there i go..opening the doors for them in my laid back homey attire

it must have been more weird for them…

had to do some very happy smile seeing them which is weird..but my mom’s smiling back in the same weird way

i missed it..i missed this.

i want to be a child again.

why is it that as you grow things become more complicated.

when i was young, just this moment completes my day..

now im asking for a lot..a lot missing…

is it just perspective?is it just me…

i had a happy day…that sound of the gates made me forget everything that is missing…

my parents are home…and now my brother’s home..im home.

that should complete it.